are you There?

God if you are out there please I need you..

Lost

I'm so lost who am I ? I have been a mother for most of my life, did I ever know who I was or what I wanted to be? Will I ever find out. I'm so restless and empty, it is like I'm in a sinkhole and sinking deeper and deeper. I know what to do but, I don't and don't know why. I wish I could just sleep while this is in progress. I don't want to live through this but, I guess I have to can only sleep few hours at a time.